Laughing on the outside

So angry on the inside

Always the one so adamantly supporting honesty

A virtue that has since ran dry

Hoping, succeeding in not letting people see me

Happiness the only quality supported in my other life

Desperately incapable of a stable anything

And hoping for everything I despise

So I'll put my self-esteem in the hands of him, him, and him

But no one understand the thoughts I have once I close my eyes