Cheshire grin above me as blood pours from my lip
i see you hate and love me and i pray i never slip
Rage and darkness rule me while i collapse beneath your thumb
Silence overwhelming and my mind is overcome
i so wished i could kill you when i saw your smiling face
Only times you smiled, when you thought i knew my place
But i never felt a victim and i never felt so small
i might have lost some battles but to win this war i'd crawl
It wasn't hard to beat you once i learned how to cheat
Hide smiles at your illusions, make a false retreat
You never saw my fury? noticed my clenched fists?
Did you really think i'd let you shape my life with this?
You'll always be there somewhere, dark corners in my head
i'll never stop expecting you, even once you're dead
But i figured out the key to you, it's give you fake control
Cause you always did stop hitting me, once you again felt whole
And though i bled on all of us as i curled up on the floor
i never made sound while you used my corpse once more
That really was the ultimate, an act of self control
You worked me like a puppet, but i maintained my soul
And that is how i won the war against you and me combined
i saw what drove all of us and and you chose to stay blind