I'm so mad at you

Your silence I cant break

Hearing your voice hurts me

As does seeing your face

But its just that you've done nothing

Which hurts more than any punch can

I think I'll go back to fucking up

And killing myself again

Its only one tear denied

From sliding down my face

Only one word help back

To keep me in this place

I can exist forever

But be invisible to you

My true idea of heaven

Would be invisibility from me too

Theres only one more day of breathing

For 2 lifetimes worth of sinning

I lie when I say I never do

Like when I said ok

When you asked "how are you."